It was nothing but a fling wasn't it?
It wasn't a relationship...
because everytime someone knocks on the door, I'd to hide behind it.
because even as she laid in my arms, I know, she's thinking of him.
because nobody knew (probably... until today).
because she never agreed to having one with me.
because she probably still loved him all along.
because I was the silly one who kept giving and giving.
because she never opened up to me.
because I never knew exactly how much she'd felt about me (and I'd probably never know).
All it was, was countless nights of snogging and of course, a 2-night stand that ended any possibility of a relationship and even our friendship.
Yes. That episode with Vera was nothing but a fling.
And I was to blame. The fault was mine. I'd hurt her, I'd allowed myself to be hurt and I was the irresponsible one.
So, Vera (who's name had not been revealed until recently), forgive me. I'm sorry. And I still love you. Even now. I still love you. But I know nothing will change the events that had happened and most importantly, nothing can bring you away from him so I'd realised that I must move on. In fact, I am learning to move on. So thank you for all the sweet memories for you'd been the sweetest girl I'd ever met. But don't you go thinking that I'd stop loving you. Years down the road, when I receive my bachelors certificate, I'd still think of you. So thank you. Thank you for loving me (even if it was for a short while but I was very very happy). Good luck with your life and most regrettably,
goodbye.
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