Ching Zhong Piang

Feeling | Like taking a crap soon
Listening | 黄乙玲 - 爱到才知痛
Thinking | What time then I can sleep tonight


Something happened to me today. Twice actually. Though it's something I'd been looking forward to, at the same time, I fear for it to happen. Today it finally did and I skipped all my after lunch classes. Pushed forward my tennis and played for 3 hours. (I think I'm getting better at it.) Of all the unhappiness that it brought, it made me decide to start on THE BOOK. Yes, THE BOOK. A normal looking notebook that I'd brought for a very special purpose. And today I'd start writting. What better day to start than today? Fret not. I WILL reach a decision by the last page.

Tomorrow's my Japanese mini oral test. I must say I haven't been working as hard as last semester. It's still not too late to buck up while that "D" is still within reach. Meanwhile, both my ASIA1030 and POLS1005's essays are due soon. After this weekend's Sydney getaway, it's full steam ahead. If I were to insist on leaving this place, I must work hard. "D"s are going to buy me my ticket outta here and to that faraway land. Sigh. How I wish there's an exchange program to the Moon. People ask me why Norway, why Canada, why Sweden. Simple, because I want to be on the other side of the globe. Because I want to be far away from this sad place. Because I don't want to be a hinderance. I guess that's what it is to be selfless. To sacrifice something (in hope) for something else while never expecting anything in return.

I've really changed.

Oh. And today's National Day. I'm really fucking pissed at SSA. WHAT THE FUCK ARE THEY DOING?! OR RATHER, WHAT THE FUCK IS THE EXCO MEMBERS (i.e. the President, VP and Treasurer) DOING?! KNN. NOT THAT I'M NATIONALIST BUT NATIONAL DAY GOT NO FUCKING EVENT?! GO OUT AND LA KOPI ALSO SHIOK LAH. FUCKING CB. THAT FUCKING BRYAN IS REALLY A LOSER. KNN I GO THAT CONTACT SINGAPORE THING, ONE SIMPLE STICKER ALSO CANNOT FILL IN FOR ME. FUCK. YOU ARE THE FUCKING FACILITATOR. NOT A FUCKING VASE. NOBODY VOTE YOU IN TO STAND ONE CORNER AND BE PRETTY. IN THE FIRST PLACE, YOU'RE NOT EVEN PRETTY. CB. I CAN'T STAND PEOPLE WHO DON'T KNOW THEIR ROLE. HELLOOO!!! YOU'RE THE FUCKING PRESIDENT. CAN YOU HAVE SOME SORT OF STANDARD OR NOT?! SECOND SEMESTER LIAO LEH!!! YOU MEAN YOU NEVER LEARN A SINGLE THING MEH? MSO, WHOM I AS A SINGAPOREAN HAS ALWAYS LOOKED DOWN ON (blame it on my elitist mentality) ALSO HAD AN EVENT ON THEIR NATIONAL DAY. SOME MORE PEOPLE GO TO THEIR HIGH COMM CAN? FUCK MAN.

Phew. That sure feels good. Guess that's just me. Always venting my anger on others. Back to topic, National Day. Rus and Amelia should be at Kelly's to watch the celebration. Dear Joey's being a very sweet friend, recording the celebration for us and then converting to DVD before sending it here. Joe, thanks man! But honestly, I never had anything for National Day parades and the subsequent celebration. It's quite sickening to see the people in white catwalking down to their seats. Argh. But then again, it's always nice to see the nation celebrating as one. I will never forget the feeling as I stood on the field back in 1998. The GOH, the F-16s, and the crowd. Guess it's essential for a small nation to be united.

I really wrote quite a lot today. Time to hit the books.