Woke up this morning from an extremely horrible nightmare - I'd killed someone accidentally and was being chased by the underground gangs as well as the state authorities. In it, I kept running and hiding. I had a friend, an ally with me. But I couldn't seek help from my family nor my sister. It was horrible. I'd never felt so helpless and cornered.
In all honesty I seldom dream, much less encounter any nightmares. As such, maybe it's because of the lack of "practice", I'm easily affected by dreams and today is no exception.
To make it worse, the results for SJ4 had been released and to my (extreme) disappointment, not only did I didn't do as good as how I'd hoped/expected, I was 2.7 points below the median grade. Today's revelation was quite devastating. It totally spoiled my day and I have absolutely no mood to do anything. There was some consoling news though. Just like how I always believe that God is fair, I did get a HD for my research essay. Toooo long have I waited for this HD. I did a small victory dance in my head but not even the HD could savage the day. SJ4's devastating result was simply too overwhelming. It's like the peak of all the unhappy stuff that had happened thus far.
In an attempt to be more cheerful, I shall try to convince myself that not only I have 1 less subject to worry about, but also hons is slightly closer now.
希望を持って、前へ進みましょう！wooo~
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