August Rush... Literally.

Have you ever felt like there's something to write but yet you just stare at the screen, watching the blinking cursor?

Today is one such day.

I'd lost count of the number of times I'd opened the drafting page only to stare at it with nothing coming out. There's way to much to say, and yet at the same time, nothing to be said. Oxymoronic isn't it?

It's been such a long time since my last proper entry that I'd actually lost the feel for writing one. I can't remember what it's like to do one. Yet so much has been happening in my life that I should take the time to record every single detail down because I want to look back at this phase in time with fondness.

The last month has been extremely exciting - amidst the constant chasing to meet deadlines, is a sudden burst of socializing. Suddenly, I had a life! This is very different from last semester, whereby I was locked up (most of the time) in my room. I don't feel as focused as last semester and I feel like everything is in a big mess. I don't know if it's because of the structure of this semester or the difference in workload or the simple fact that I've been slacking too much earlier in the semester. I'm very glad that I'd made a new friend and that I'd spent time with other friends and for that, I'm very thankful that God had provided me with such an opportunity. Yet, I still feel some kind of remorse (and disappointment in myself) for not being as focused as last semester or at least as focused as I should have been.

I believe by now, one should be able to feel my dilemma. That's life isn't it? You can never have the best of both worlds.

But balancing friends and school isn't everything that happened last month. Suddenly, I was faced with a new challenge. A challenge which I was previously thankful that I never have to face in the final semester of my university life. But here it is. Right smack in my face. Life truly is unexpected and a complete adventure. I know how I'm going to take up this challenge but what will come out of it, I'm completely clueless.

Perhaps there's a reason why I'm so interested in the upcoming general elections in Japan (besides the fact that the direction of my hons thesis is dependent on it), is that, just like how it might be a historical event for Japan, overcoming this challenge will likely be historical for me as well. FUCKING HISTORICAL.

Anyway, I hate blogging in riddles. I don't feel like I own this blog. I should be able to speak freely but no, I can't. RAWR! Regardless, I will definitely blog again when it's all over, when I can remove this fog of war.

Oh by the way, I submitted the application for the Summer Research Scholarship yesterday night. Results will be out in mid-September. Shall keep my fingers crossed till then.

Now, back to "Sovereign Wealth Funds: A Misconceived Threat to National Security".