疾風の終り

[Jay Chou 周杰伦 - 我不配]

Yes. 我不配. After 2 months and zero development, I regret to inform that Project 疾風 (Hayate) has come to an end.

It's funny how when I finally decide to take a some proper photos of it that I sold it, on the day itself! Not only that, I had like 5 responses for an ad that I'd posted on Craigslist like the night before (As opposed to the one that I'd posted 2 months ago and I probably just as much response). It's amazing, like as if lady luck suddenly decided to do something.

This has been a huge lesson for me. Project 疾風 taught me so many things. Of it all, I guess it's not to be too optimistic. Not to be too optimistic about finances, friends and life. This was such a major screw up and I'm just super relieved that this nightmare has finally come to an end. Back then, it felt like as though a curse has descended upon me. Everything was in a huge mess. Academic stuff took a major beating and I led a social life of a recluse. It was horrible. I can't imagine a machine could cause so much chaos in my life.

Amidst this mess, was also a journey of self-discovery. Day by day, I learn more about myself. I learnt that in the face of the lack of good company, I could always survive on anime and J-Drama. I learnt that I really enjoy shopping and eating a lot. I learnt that even in the most dire circumstances, I could always find small, mini, tiny joys to make my day. I learnt that there are people out there who actually cared more than they seemed to be.

Even now, some of the dark clouds still remain. But I know, the sun will come shinning through. Because, and only because I have faith. Faith in Him, in myself. That things will straighten up fine. It's just that sometimes, it'd take a while.

My laundry is ready so I should go and collect it now. Meanwhile, as I make my way downstairs, I'd pray for everybody, for myself that we all will have faith, wisdom and courage to make the right choices in life.

Farewell, Hayate... It was fun while it lasted...