Fucked up fucker

It's confirmed. Rus' going back. I'm so happy for him. I know he really yearns to go back and I think he definitely deserves to it. Now I really have no reason to be here. Not a single fucking reason. I hate them. Some fucked up Perth trip it is. Totally cock up everything. Best of all, it's my return that's at stake. Argh. Now I can only pray that Rus' mom can get a good deal for me. It's so sickening that I'm the only fella who has to settle his own return plans. It's not that I'm not independent. But I think it simply goes to show how much my parents can't be bothered. What "why doesn't he understand that I want to spend more time with him?" Pure SMLJ. Last time when I wanted to transfer to another secondary school also the same thing. Complained about Yuying yet never give two fucks about it. I don't care, I HAVE to compare. Why can't he put in more effort and do some string pulling himself? Is work so important? Or is our family so dependent that if he takes leave for a few days we'd go hungry? Why is he so fucked up? I have every right to compare because I'm not like that. People who know me will know that I'd go all out for people I love and care. So if I can do it, why can't he? The reason's simple. He's just fucked up. Fucker. And don't get me started on the money issue. Come on, if you really want me back, why do you have a "budget"? Bud-ki-lan understand?! You already spent God knows how much on this degree, what the fuck is a few hundred more? Or are you broke after buying your spanking new beamer? Or is me returning not part of the deal? Hence as a bonus, I cannot ask for more? Stupid Perth trip. Who the fuck ask you to book so early? Just because got some fucking sale and you damn fucking stingy right? Argh. Fucking cheebye. I know I'm swearing like nobody's business. But hey, have you wondered, it IS nobody's business. Damn it. I'm really fucking pissed. I can just go on and on. I can't even be bothered to segmentate my ramblings into paragraphs. Really... True blue fucker. Lucky I got class now. If not I'm going to bitch till thy kingdom come. Cheebye.